Why

I am writing this to explain why

I am a burden.

Simply as really.

I have two gorgeous kids that have slowly been turnt against me.

U call me selfish. I say they won’t see me on pain anymore or crying. They won’t see mummy on morphine or in hospital.

They will have there dad’s family.

They won’t see me work myself into a early grave.

Then there’s the rest of my life.

I don’t deserve what my ex is saying to me or doing to me mentally.

No one deserves all this.

No one deserves being abandoned by there family.

I’m alone and I always will be.

I have Bret but  I’m not gonna be a burden. My mood swings my depression. The stress I have caused him. It was selfish to fall in love with him and he deserves so much more then me. He is amazing and I need him to realise that.

Now I can do some thing for him a nd he can move on.

Be the amazing man he is, not let me drag him down.

Tonight he made me more happy then I ever have been. I never wanna come down from that.

But I know in a few hours my world will crash down around me. Thru message and mental abuse. I don’t wanna loose what I have now.

I hope u all understand xx

I’m sorry don’t hate me please xx