My partner is back at work, my kids are back at school and i sat in my car for an hour this morning just cause i didnt want to go into the house knowing i would be alone.
I dont do well alone at all. I cry, i get into my own head, i cant distract myself.
Yes Tarley was a dog but on multiple time she protected me against the ex. When i was pregnant with my son he went for me Tarley bite him and would not get off my lap. I use to protect her to when he use to go for her with a knife. The kids have been given the usual story that Tarley has gone to the farm.
I know she is gone but i walk down stairs expecting her to be there. Think i need ot be quiet in case i wake her. I went down stairs this morning without even thinking and open the back door for her and went back to bed.
I know it was her time to go and she was so weak she went very quickly but doesnt make it any easier.
I asked my partner for a date things would get better
but he didnt understand
i dont want a date he is certain but just something to work towards a end date. not a realistic one but just someday
Sounds silly to some but i need something, someday, anything in my life
