Today is hard very hard
Its one year since my mum died. One year ago i didnt/couldnt get to say goodbye. One year when i felt alone. One year when i had the last oppertunity to see her.
Its true when someone dies u think about all the good memories. We didnt have many but i barely remember the bad.
There is no grave or hole in the wall to lay flowers at. I have no money to do it myself. I wanted to plant a rose bush for her with a plack but its expensive.
My partners kids are here and its a reminder of the reason i couldnt see my mum. It wasnt them it was there mum and my partner. But they are a reminder.
This week is hard but each year will get easier. And with my memory issues each year i will forget a little more.
So day by day i will forget about my mum with nothing to remind me of her nothing to refresh those memories i will loose.
