This is going to be the last blog i write, for the past 4 years i have known things were not perfect but i was in love. The kind of love you feel once in your life time. The kind of love that you get butterflies from whenever you see them and u feel sick when not round them.
I missed you when you slept. I laughed when you laughed. Smiled just because your smile is infectious. I cried when you cried and sat with you when you couldnt sleep.
Even through all this i knew your were not mine, i knew you were speaking to over girls, i kept it hidden. You said i worked to much, or was too clingy. I couldnt win. Then one day after a 3 day shift you ended it and my world shattered. I couldnt breathe and felt helpless. You couldnt give me a reason and from that day you changed. Everything about you changed, your face, the way you looked at me. The tone in your voice.
Everyday it seemed like you hated me more and more, but for what. Tonight you changed my Facebook password. Seems really silly, thats my memories. I have a bad memory and you know that so to take the only personal thing i have was not ok. Thats the contact to my kids.
You destroyed me in more ways then you will no. I didnt cheat, i didnt hit you, I worked, built you up and waited for you to come home.
But Ur happy now and I’m pleased for u. I’m sorry I wasn’t strong, sorry I worked to hard and sorry I wasn’t enough
I will always love u no and forever.
But now I need to say bye. Forgive me
SORRY I WASNT ENOUGH
