I understand why people kill themselves
No its not selfish. I hate it when people say that. Most of the time it’s due to loneliness.
U can have a million people around but feel like the only person in the world.
The reason I am writing this.
I’m sick of being alone. And always the one in the wrong.
I have had 11 operations and done them all alone,
I have no family as the disowned me. At the age of 14. No I wasn’t a bad child I just wasn’t my dad’s child so always the outsider. I got blamed for everything. From bending a book (I got a slap round my face for that) – to getting blamed when I was sexually assaulted.
I have had 6 miscarriages.
No friends that actually care. Not exaggerating. No one visits me at hospital when I mention anything or disagree with them I get told I to self obsessed.
I have endometriosis, fibro, heart issues and am I pain daily.
I have lost job after job due to collapsing.
I get ridiculed when I don’t stick to plans cause I’m in agony.
I get told I’m faking my illnesses. Cause obviously surgeons love wasting there time and operating.
I’m in a rediculous amount of debt.
So I ask again why do I bother.
My debts are thru the roof.
I use to self harm but that’s not enough anymore. I go to the doctors and I told im coping fine.
No family, no friends, no partner, no support.
