PAIN

I am writing this to try to take my mind off the pain I am in right now. Trying not to pass out. Trying not to be sick.

When I say pain I mean tears down my face the feeling of my tummy being ripped apart from the inside.

All I m do is think of my op next week and preying the pain eases after.

But right now I am in tears on the bathroom floor trying to write this to control the pain. I prefer to be alone when like this so I don’t have to hide it. I know I shouldn’t hide it but people must see me do the school runs and smile and think it can’t be that bad. I have just learnt to hide it very well. People go in hospital for less pain then this

I’m eyes are stinging from cry, my back is throbbing, my hips feel like they are being pulled apart and my tummy is being torn at by and invisible animal. My head is spinning but this is a regular thing for me. Doctors provide lots of pain killers that at this point won’t even touch the pain.

Now  so tired it drains me

Thank u for listening thru the worst of it for now. Need sleep. #endometriosis