Lately things have been hard once again due to the ex. Gareth.
Apparently i should be grateful for having kids with him as before we met i had 3 miscarraiges and with him i was able to have kids. So im ment to do what ever he says and thank him for the rest of my life.
Now what he hasnt said is that he caused 3 miscarraiges before i had my son and daughter, he hasnt mentioned that when my waters broke 7 weeks early he was playing online with his mates and his friends had to tell him to get off line to help me. He also hasnt said that he spent all our money on Fifa packs and gambling so i had to walk over a mile to the hospital and back again while still leaking. leaving me with sores. The fact i was in labour for 52 hours and the whole time he was telling me to shut up as he had a headache and he wouldnt even get riley dressed when he was first born. Now we go onto demi he didnt even turn upto that birth i went in on a scheduled induce. He didnt turn up which turnt into an emergency C section where he daughter actually was born not breathing. I was unconscious due to being put to sleep so demi took 3 mins to breathe aided and 5 to breathe on her own. He wasnt there so demi was without a parent for 2 1/2 hours. being held by strangers. Or the fact that when they said i could finally come home he said he didnt want me home and the hospital agreed to keep us a few extra days.
Not letting me potty train riley until he was 4 as didnt want the mess. Not letting me phone ambulances for the kids until it was nearly too late when they had breathing difficulties. When the doctor at the hospital says it was nearly to late its not me over reacting.
But im ment to be thankful to him for not hugging me when we found out we were pregnant. For hitting me during the pregnancies, for isolating me so i had no one.
But it shouldnt bother me as much as it should that he has lied to everyone and made out its all me when police reports say otherwise. Now he has locked my kids in his nans house twice leaving me no choice but to go to court to get an emergency custody order. But its to late the kids are scarred and ask why it all happened. Im left picking up the peices and he is there playing the victim. The courts found 19 reports of domestic violence against me but he has so many people wrapped around his little finger. Now the kids may never see there dad again. Yes i get what everyone thinks maybe its a good idea. But i grew up with no family at all. I went to foster families and left home alone, i had no one to speak to. And it damaged me.
I want them to have supervised visits not alone time with him just something.
