When getting with some one u always take a risk.
I took the risk to dive into relationship and finally kick the kids dad out because i feel more in love with some one then i ever have before.
u know the love where u cant stop thinking about them day and night. u check ur phone every 5 mins when they are not with u.
I fell in love to fast and gave everything and now im paying the price
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I still love him more then anything but dont receive it back.
but fuck it it doesnt matter
things dont matter
days dont matter they always consist of the same thing. the kids having tantrums and me ending up in pain and no one giving a shit.
my shoulder has been hurting alot and its got to the stage folding clothes is painful but fuck it it doesnt matter. i cant even use that arm to wipe my foofoo after the toilet.
i just won custody of my kids but had no one to celebrate it with. no one even suggested too. my bday is coming up but no one will care.
so its another night on the sofa. just not happy.
sooooooooooooo alone
and no one who cares. no one that wants to listen. everyone is so self centre.#
no one asked me how i feel about winning the court case, or my health, my mental health or the fact its the anniversary of my mums death next month.
I grew up knowing i wasnt loved by my family. it was made obvious. now im getting older and nothing has changed. I dont have anyone who is truly there for me. so one who would drop everything.
my partner use to be that person but not anymore. its just me again now
