Tonight was the first time in a long time that i self harmed.
I cant cope the pain is so bad the hospital are saying its in my head and im on morphine daily now.
i can keep arrangements with what friends i have. the friends i have have no clue how bad it is cause even when i explain they really dont care.
i sleep most of the time due to the morphine my sight is blurring all the time once again due to morphine.
im passing out on a daily basis.
still working online selling pics and vids as it impossible for me to work a normal job.
i have just had enough.
i shit blood today, i felt like i was having another baby. the pain nearly made me pass out.
so i had enough i took a razor and cut myslef.
