Although i know that my partner will leave me soon he is the reason im here, most days he doesnt want me. starting to think he only wants me when we go out and drink.
Cant blame him. my mental health. i do porn. most days i can barely walk on so much morphine most people would be in a permanent state of sleep and my kids are playing up so bad. His kids hate me enough to lie in court about me that my partner hasnt seen them in over a year.
all i want is to feel loved. hugs and kisses isnt much to ask for is but everyone gets bored of me. no family, no friends and i have pushed my partner away. pretty sure he is just here cause of the dogs.
i dont remember the last day i had no pain. even the little pain im in is what use to b my extreme pain. my extreme pain now is pain i never thought i could bare. everyone is so use to me being in pain now it means nothing, but its not nothing it hurts
