I have written in here a lot lately all stuff about me being down. So now i am sat at work unable to concentrate. I have one guy messaging me asking for me to where heels to work and can he give me a foot massage.
my partner sad because thats all i seem to make him.
Drama coming form every angle.
I think i should move closer to ex so my kids have family. But i start a new job on monday with better money and better future opportunitys.
but i finally have a great guy and friends. but my kids come first and i just make my man sad.
he would be better off if i left. he would find someone who is not stressing all the time, or on meds that are making her hair fall out and not sleep well or making her ill all the time.
Im to tired to do anything or cook.
What people are not understanding is im not a good mum and need that break of a night a week to recover from the early starts and late nights.
No one even notices how ill i am. funny thing is if u could see my illnesses people would be fussing and not letting me move. but oh u cant see its so im fine. not in pain at all, or dizzy or weak.
Its fine it will never change.
