Today I found out my mum died about 4am. I was going to see her today. Now she isn’t here anymore.
I’m gonna break. And I can’t stop it.
Another mum of mine who took me in when I was cast out by mine has lung and brain cancer and doesn’t have long either.
My Foster mum died 2 weeks ago.
How do I cope with this. Can’t stop crying, I’m lashing out at people who are trying to help.
My mental health isn’t great anyway. I feel numb, confused, alone.
Can’t stay awake, endo pain is bad.
Where do I turn. Do I take my meds and block it all out.
Tried to call doctors as if I break I will end up in mental health unit again. Trying not to self harm. It’s hard people don’t understand.
Just want to numb it all, stop the random crying and give up.
What would u do?
